My best friend passed away last night.
I am doing okay today, not great. Not as bad as last night.
His x-rays showed huge masses of fluid that concealed his heart, pushed his trachea up against his spine, and compressed his lungs. He is in a much better place now, and when we said goodbye I know he smiled at me and thanked me for taking care of him when Margaret passed away. Bentley was the best cat I could have hoped for and I miss him.
Luckily I have great support from my friends and family and I know I will get through this. It is unexpected by you know how the saying goes...
Death ends a life, not a relationship.